Forgiveness is such a powerful action and one that isn't used nearly as much as it should be. I will be first to say I don't forgive so myself. Throughout this whole process of my health, mirena iud, hysterectomy - the one thing I lost sight was my faith. The number one thing I should've been doing was praying during this whole ordeal. Not running from God or looking for someone to blame or be angry with. I was so very very angry - with everyone including myself.
Thankfully I have recently became reconnected with my faith and it wasn't until listening to our local radio station when the song "Worn" came on and I immediately starting to cry as I felt Jesus's presence to just forgive - starting with myself with everything that has happened. I connected with Jesus and realized how wearing it was to be angry with Him because I felt He let this happen and angry with Bayer. I forgave everyone who has ever told me to get over it. Forgiveness is so powerful and once you forgive it ultimately makes you feel so much happier. After all Jesus died for so that our sins could be FORGIVEN.
I now believe I was chosen to go through this difficult journey to educate women of MY experience of the mirena iud so they can make an educated decision for themselves.
I love my God and Jesus Christ.
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Since I last wrote I've been to a specialist down at the university as a second opinion and he confirmed I will have a lifelong battle dealing with the pain and problems the mirena has left me with. There is scar tissue built up in my intestines from the perforation from the mirena going from my uterus to my intestines that will occasionally cause pain and problems as the intestines is constantly moving. There really isn't anything doctors can do except manage the pain when it happens. Removing the scar tissue will just create more scar tissue so that's not an option. So my only option is just to live with it.