Monday, June 17, 2013

Update 6/17/2013 - Hysterectomy needed

I am scheduled for a hysterectomy on 7/8/13. My bleeding has gotten really bad to the point of large clots and easily soaking through everything within an hour or less during the bad times. I will get a "period" every couple of weeks, and have cramps that can double me over. I am taking ibuprofen without relief. I went in for an ultrasound a couple weeks ago and had yet another scare. The Dr asked for urine for a pregnancy test because a "sac" was in my uterus. My husband had a vasectomy and got his results of no sperm found just a few weeks before, so I knew pregnancy was next to impossible. Well I had a huge blood clot in my uterus. Dr said it's time to do something. At first I choose an ablation, but then after talking with my husband and realizing that it is possible it wouldn't work and it was just buying time for a hysterectomy, I then called the Dr to switch to a hysterectomy. Based on what the mirena did to my uterus and such I was ensured I made a good decision.

I am really scared to go through it. My dad's mom died from an infection from her hysterectomy before I was even born. I know times and medicine have come along way since then, it still rests in the back of my head. I do not want to make my husband a single dad with 4 young boys, and I don't want my boys to be raised without their mom. I also have the sentimental part of it; My 4 boys all started out there, & of course it's what makes me a woman. I'm scared of my bladder problems getting worse because I read about people needing a bladder sling after it because of leaking. I already have interstitial cystitis, so I don't want to make matters worse. I worry about the intimacy with my husband as I hear that can sometimes become an issue.

It's not what I want at this point in time, but I need it, I cannot live like I am anymore. I am limited on what I do and where I go. I have the migraines that come with every period or bleeding I get. And I'm 32. No 32 y/o should have to loose their uterus. Ever.

I hate you mirena, I believe with every heartbeat I have, that the mirena caused this, whether scientifically it is proven or not....woman's intuition - the Mirena caused all my heartache, all my pain and now it's going to cause me to loose my uterus. Something no-one can give me back. It's taking my womanhood, my childbearing organ and what my 4 boys started out as a growing life. I will never be the same after 7/8/2013.